long!!!!!!!!!

hey electrical diary...

firstly sori for not updating u for quiet a long time...
i have alot of challenge..even ma bestie didnt want to text me animore wat to say everione in thier happi lyfe ryte now..its oki wit me im here coz i wana help others...but its so sad...coz i didnt even get the time to speak wit her..shes one n onli bestie i had...hmm....lyfe......

a changing Lyfe

Hey...lamer tk type...hehes...

look im in delima loses everithing n wining a memories...as u can see the last pic me with ma beloved bro min...im always honor to be hs bro..no matter wat hs cool...i got hym a electric chair n it was so funny..his so tipsy haha....

second las pic..

see those two sachoks..tats ma beloved 5 years fwen...they know ma prob n i know thiers...they r a great partner siblings and brotherhood to b wih..hearts those memories we were together isnt it great finally get to meet up togeher again......

second pic....

his lyke a brother to me i treasure hym badly.. cant see anitink shit happen to hym his everithing to me..im not a gay but his precius..no body touches hym or they will suffer.....

lastly the first pic....

its me in orange cool longboarders...that board is ma gal since i cant get ani gal i be with tis boardit know wat i feel n wat i du...cant belive it happen so fast haiz...stori3...

The Onli bestie That i Have

hey..its been a hard tyme for me tis days..sori for all the stupidity post...i just cant face the fact..a jerk lyke me tears runing everyday,although it keeps hurting in me i jus want her to feel hapi be hapi...yes of course i love her but wat could i do i cant make a person to love me..n i cant force her to love me...i can onli hope tats dreams n hope sumtime du came true...

DEE_OKINAWA

do u know that through out all tis years since i was 1 till tday..

u r the onli bestie that i have...

i didnt have ani bestie through out tis years, u show me everything i need to know from fwens to family n to careers...

show me wats life is all about..

i loved u not because of the crush that i had on u..

but the way u are the way u treat people the way u loved the serounding around u...

its an honor tat i know u..

n its an honor to be ur bestie..

of course i would lyke been with u but i understand ur situation sumtyme love reali do hurts alot..

im jus onli confuse wats so difference in me...

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every moment tat i spent between us n TMK i'll treasure even e single tears of joy on ur bday tat u droped i'll treasure it...

i reali want u to be happi forget about ma feeling let me handle it..

yes its hard but i'll cry..

wont die trying right..its worth a try...

da awk nakmu sad2...kiter maseh hidup...skg awk da ader yang punyer terpakse kiter undur diri...kiter tak beniat nk tipu awk..kiter cume tknk awk rase besalah and kiter cume nk act normal...tapi cume pedih kat hati ini terlalu kuat...kuat sungguh bagi kiter...skg kiter harap awk akan bahagia dan kiter harap awk ngan chucky kekal dan abadi.....

sekian

Izam_Serizawa

WOW....im BORed haiz...now im onli think for straits...since im sgl n i know HOPE IS ONLI A DREAM..i onli chill maself..stressfulli....fucked up haiz...sedih seyh....arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!nuting to say BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

late stori....

guess wat i fainted yesterday...hmm wake up n i was in the hospital but i didnt notice...AAARRRRHHH wats happening to me...haiz...wtf sia...cokup life i saw a vision in ma dream n its very painfull...haiz hate ma self..guess wat i've made a board with e help of ma bro beloo...tank kayu...sap hehes i design it today..with e paint n names with it...the vision still hunting me...i hope it will end soon...wish i could be it the (g_a_e)...haiz...keliru..da larh nuting to say much...hope happi always...izam serizawa aka ur celeng...peace out...cheers..nytez

mi Painless Memories

now..i realise everything...i dunno how to relive

miself..i cried almost everyday single day..the most person ever i love is you..but i know it will not happen between us from the start i know..yes true i told u already but it keeps coming out from mi mouth..its a painless thing but i cant force u..its ur love lyfe i dun wana be a forcer...mayb u tink im not the right person..after i had a crush then to love u..its not easy to be erase n its hard for me to stable myself..as wat i say u realy mean alot to me...n i'lldu anitink to make u happi even if it hurts me...n this is wat im trying to do now..to make u happy although im hurt badly but for ur happiness i'll always cheer u up..u can always n always count on me..if u saw me crying u should understand y..but i dun wan u to feel bad...dun wori if i wana cry i will go sumwhere else first k..keep smiling always i hearts u alot haiz..jus...take care of urself...plz...

pedih larh seyh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wow...hmm pening ler....pening seyhh...u forgot tday we suppose to go out together seyh bestie...haiz...u say u'll make it tday..but wat to do u gotur own plans tkperlah...i guess its jus understanding thing...i would not be home again tday..feeling lyke not going home tday...dun say jus tday its everyday..damn fucking sad n stress...i dunno wat to do again..i wana give up lyfe..OMG IBU MASOK HOSPITAL TADI PAGI..nangis jap seyh...i came back home n ibu jus sit still then kiter kejot2 ibu then ibu keep still i call ambulance....then ambulance come i carry mi mom down....yesterday i go home 5 am then it happen haiz....nw ibu da ampai umah..da oki sikit...kiter da tknk lagi hidup haiz...tk faham lagi aper yg hidup ini ingin...ibu ngan ayah asyik marah...saye bingit ngan dorg tapi syg...but serius kiter nk klua ngan awk seyh nari..i take yesterday leave to have happi tyme ngan awk tau...hmm..pedihh.....................mcm maner kiter nk terang kan kiter taknak awk marah tapi ending up...hmm...tkpe awk..i learn ma lessonnot to be a selfish guy...onli wiwi know wat i've been through..awk nk tahu y awk tanyer wiwi k..tapi dun misunderstood wat i say k......in dream tears fading off Izam Serizawa TMK