The Onli bestie That i Have

hey..its been a hard tyme for me tis days..sori for all the stupidity post...i just cant face the fact..a jerk lyke me tears runing everyday,although it keeps hurting in me i jus want her to feel hapi be hapi...yes of course i love her but wat could i do i cant make a person to love me..n i cant force her to love me...i can onli hope tats dreams n hope sumtime du came true...

DEE_OKINAWA

do u know that through out all tis years since i was 1 till tday..

u r the onli bestie that i have...

i didnt have ani bestie through out tis years, u show me everything i need to know from fwens to family n to careers...

show me wats life is all about..

i loved u not because of the crush that i had on u..

but the way u are the way u treat people the way u loved the serounding around u...

its an honor tat i know u..

n its an honor to be ur bestie..

of course i would lyke been with u but i understand ur situation sumtyme love reali do hurts alot..

im jus onli confuse wats so difference in me...

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every moment tat i spent between us n TMK i'll treasure even e single tears of joy on ur bday tat u droped i'll treasure it...

i reali want u to be happi forget about ma feeling let me handle it..

yes its hard but i'll cry..

wont die trying right..its worth a try...

da awk nakmu sad2...kiter maseh hidup...skg awk da ader yang punyer terpakse kiter undur diri...kiter tak beniat nk tipu awk..kiter cume tknk awk rase besalah and kiter cume nk act normal...tapi cume pedih kat hati ini terlalu kuat...kuat sungguh bagi kiter...skg kiter harap awk akan bahagia dan kiter harap awk ngan chucky kekal dan abadi.....

sekian

Izam_Serizawa

WOW....im BORed haiz...now im onli think for straits...since im sgl n i know HOPE IS ONLI A DREAM..i onli chill maself..stressfulli....fucked up haiz...sedih seyh....arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!nuting to say BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

late stori....

guess wat i fainted yesterday...hmm wake up n i was in the hospital but i didnt notice...AAARRRRHHH wats happening to me...haiz...wtf sia...cokup life i saw a vision in ma dream n its very painfull...haiz hate ma self..guess wat i've made a board with e help of ma bro beloo...tank kayu...sap hehes i design it today..with e paint n names with it...the vision still hunting me...i hope it will end soon...wish i could be it the (g_a_e)...haiz...keliru..da larh nuting to say much...hope happi always...izam serizawa aka ur celeng...peace out...cheers..nytez

mi Painless Memories

now..i realise everything...i dunno how to relive

miself..i cried almost everyday single day..the most person ever i love is you..but i know it will not happen between us from the start i know..yes true i told u already but it keeps coming out from mi mouth..its a painless thing but i cant force u..its ur love lyfe i dun wana be a forcer...mayb u tink im not the right person..after i had a crush then to love u..its not easy to be erase n its hard for me to stable myself..as wat i say u realy mean alot to me...n i'lldu anitink to make u happi even if it hurts me...n this is wat im trying to do now..to make u happy although im hurt badly but for ur happiness i'll always cheer u up..u can always n always count on me..if u saw me crying u should understand y..but i dun wan u to feel bad...dun wori if i wana cry i will go sumwhere else first k..keep smiling always i hearts u alot haiz..jus...take care of urself...plz...

pedih larh seyh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wow...hmm pening ler....pening seyhh...u forgot tday we suppose to go out together seyh bestie...haiz...u say u'll make it tday..but wat to do u gotur own plans tkperlah...i guess its jus understanding thing...i would not be home again tday..feeling lyke not going home tday...dun say jus tday its everyday..damn fucking sad n stress...i dunno wat to do again..i wana give up lyfe..OMG IBU MASOK HOSPITAL TADI PAGI..nangis jap seyh...i came back home n ibu jus sit still then kiter kejot2 ibu then ibu keep still i call ambulance....then ambulance come i carry mi mom down....yesterday i go home 5 am then it happen haiz....nw ibu da ampai umah..da oki sikit...kiter da tknk lagi hidup haiz...tk faham lagi aper yg hidup ini ingin...ibu ngan ayah asyik marah...saye bingit ngan dorg tapi syg...but serius kiter nk klua ngan awk seyh nari..i take yesterday leave to have happi tyme ngan awk tau...hmm..pedihh.....................mcm maner kiter nk terang kan kiter taknak awk marah tapi ending up...hmm...tkpe awk..i learn ma lessonnot to be a selfish guy...onli wiwi know wat i've been through..awk nk tahu y awk tanyer wiwi k..tapi dun misunderstood wat i say k......in dream tears fading off Izam Serizawa TMK

12/01/10

haiz...still e same as days go on...i cant tink straight seyh haiz keliru lagi....u know wat i cried today OMG!!!!!depan bestie agi....haiz...n she hug me...biler dier nak alik ku kish her forehead i was shock i did tat.....making me more felling lyke crying n dun wanna let her go....haiz...i guess i cant fade it off after all i tried but it jus wat feelings says....i dun wan her to know coz its hard for me to say it out..infront of her lagi tu i dun want her to be angli or sad...i jus keep quiet of ma painless tragedy..hold it hard....keep strg...but every time i sit alone i cried in the sudden...i luv her alot...wiwi y cry...nakmu cry coz of me..i know u hapy to see tat but i guess dream is jus a dream if onli its reality then i'll hug both of u...u two means alot to me...same goes as TMK Bros....nakmu cry2 k...ku tetap besabar k...mayb tiada jodoh antare kiter mcm kak ckp...nanak pakse cinter tak bagus wiwi...da nakmu bri k kau membuat ku menangis..da nie da lewat mlm ku tak balik pun nari psl ayah dan ibu kiter...hampa hati biler mereka ckp kiter tak guna..tapi apa kan daya tanpa drg kiter tkder wujud di dunia ini..da lah ku tak tahu nk g maner lps nie..harap bejumper lag nanti k comp...assalam...

stori line........

dear fwens...im sorri for ma selfish..haiz...im not ma self icant help it im totally stwess haiz i dun know y...keliru seyh ku tak boleh fkr betul diri ku pun susah nk berfkr haiz ku tak tahu kenaper sedih seyh...agaknye nasib ku memang bermalang hampa hati ku susah ku nk tunjuk...ku tak nk susah kan sesiaper,,,tiap mlm ku tdo di....bernangis...pedih hati nie....sumpah tak bohong impian ku skg sudah hancur mungkin satu hari sie trime atau mungkin tidak hanya takdir yang menentui nyer...da lah buat pedih hati...i'll update again k assalm.....

Izam N Akid Dedicade To A Special Person.....

its dark sowie...but its tmk boys..akid n izam...

TMK HINGGA MATI

to all mi tmk brothers n luv ones.....

im sori for ma mistake n ma misbehave when i was with u guys.im realy sori for ma mistake..i luv u guys alot,i've change alot since i met u guys,u guys have made me a better person..when i first met u guys i was scared coz i might hurt u guys or i might b left out coz of ma appearence...i appreciate..wat u all have give me is veri memorable for me...i wont be cumming down ani longer but i will pop out once a while to realease ma miss with u guys...like to tanks hakim akhbar spark sadam mamat dot n all...n ma beloved ayu n wira..i hope u guys fufill wa u want....i love u guys alot...haiz i dunno wat happen to me i wish i could tell u but hard for me to tell its oki dun wori abt me..

AAAAAAAYYYYYYYUUUUUUU

i reali want u to know y havbeen avoiding me...i know u hav probs..n i know u wana be sgl...u hav me tmk boys to help u dun be so sa..i'll be always by ur side ..jus remember without mom n dad u wont b living in tis world..its jus our fate to hav probs..tuhan gives us probs coz he want us to remember whu we are n to remember him always..so i hope u tink bfore u du anitink...dun give up in life...its not symphaty but to show u wats fren for...i know u've been angry with me..but for tis once bfore i go let me help u...bagi kite awk bagaikan nyawe kiter tau awk...luker di luar boleh di pulih....tapi dalam diri kite yg tak terkater susah di pulih maaf kan kiter kalau kiter ader salah bahase dan salah kater maaf kan kiter...saye harap awk hidup dgn bahgia...ingin kiter jumpe awk dan berkate saye cinte kan awk tapi tiap kali nk berkater sunguh berat...dan setiap kali kiter nk berkater,awk ader masaalah jadi terpakse kiter sembunyik kan soalan itu..sekian wasalam...

mohammad faizulnizam bin mohammad Rahim..aka APET SERIZAWA

i guess i understand.....i know its hard for u...haiz....its veri complicated for me ,i know i dun stand a chance..n i dun stand aniwhre in ur heart...but bfore i go ani further..i want u to know..i lup u alot seriusli but i dun know hw i wan to show u...im seriusli sad ..u reali means alot to me..but i cant force love..haiz hw i wish tat u notice..i know u trying to avoid me...nw dun bother to avoid me...i hope u get wat u want...i encourage u..i will always luv u...n i will wait till its tyme..i reali cant forget abt u..i guess its tyme for me to take a seat...i wont be cuming down animore..i would lyke to say tanks for beeing a nices fwen for me...i hope we'll keep in touch......

Please Forgive me....

Im sori for letting u mad or even Sad...i realy didnt mean to hurt u in such a way...bagi owang memang kiter tak sebraper...tapi dgn ke iklasan hati dan kejujuran hati kiter, awk sungguh bermakne bagi kiter...seandainye kiter dpt besemuke memigang tangan awk ingin kiter bertanye jikalau sudikah awk bersame kiter..tapi apa kan daya itu hanya mimpi dan halangan di temui...seandainya dpt kiter memeluk awak jiklau airmata kiter ataupun awk mengalir...tak ingin kiter melihat awk kesorangan dan bersedih...kiter tahu awk marah kepade kiter kerna bertanya tentang ini..maafkan lah diri kiter yang hanya ingin bercinta hidup semati dgn awk...maafin lah saye jikalau tersalah bahase ataupun tersalah kata..ampunilah kiter...sekian wasalam